tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-71559405580004515142024-03-12T15:27:47.268-07:00knifes and daggersThe crap i call a daily life.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.comBlogger52125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-60388845331957497252012-04-08T17:11:00.001-07:002012-04-08T17:15:09.578-07:00My sociology into my own life.From the shoes I wear to the bat ears hat I own and clapping with my hands above my head music and television has influenced my socialization into American culture. Some musicians may have been forced upon me, others I voluntarily listen too to make my socialization easier and alas the ones I liked when no one else around me liked.<br />Coming to the United States I had had an accent which I got rid of for the most part within a year of my being here. Upon my arrival I knew nothing of what was going on in music because in Cameroon such things were trivial at the time. The first few months were spent listening to Radio Disney. So many tales they told and so many morals to go along with them. However when I started school here, all the kids were listening to Hot 97 and songs about people being shot in the hood. I found everything about such music appalling but I pretended to like it in order to fit into my surroundings because I had nothing else in common with these foreign children. This was in primary school.<br />As the earls went by and I entered junior high school, my new accent trained with the help of 7th heaven, Charmed, Buffy the vampire slayer, one tree hill, and The BBC I found that everyone was suddenly obsessed with what they wore which baffled me because we had a uniform, white collared shirt khaki pants and black shoes however everyone turned these basic things into hundreds of dollars worth in clothing and my mother found that ridiculous so I was unable I connect with anyone. As a result to not haven bought 200 dollar sneakers I was picked on so instead I got my socialization of a preteen did from book by Judy Blum and Julie Ann Peters among many others like J.K Rolling and such. From Harry Potter I learned the value of loyalty and friendship. The only problem was I had no one else to share these newly found values with because no one else was reading the same books as me. With One Tree Hill, though I’d been drawing for ages I adopted the style of drawing one of the main characters used, I also got a lot of the music I listened to from that show. The only thing I did socially was play chess with strangers over the Internet. So for 3 years I listened to Radio Disney, watched Television, played chess with strangers and read countless books. <br />In high school I got to enforce all the morals I picked up in books and movies and still be cool all because one day I got my mum to buy me a pair of classic converses which the small group of head shaven tattoo sporting piercing haven cool kids wore. This landed me a spot in their little circle and in that circle I enforced for myself what I felt was right and wrong based on the books I'd read and what I watched on television, It was wrong to not drink alcohol and do drugs, It was wrong to have sex with random people, It was wrong to dumpster dive, It was wrong to side on the side walk and look like a hobo (this rule was flexible if I was tired of standing) it was wrong to listen to radio Disney, it was wrong to mistake The Turtles for The Doors, It was wrong to not wear tight pants and loose tops, it was wrong to dress in bright colours, It was wrong to look like your clothing just got laundered. Eventually I got sick of all the rules of socialization so I went to join a different more simple group or so I though. The next group was a practically all lesbian group, and learning the acceptable gender terms and fashions was a tedious as the last group so after a while I left there too and joined the girl’s basket ball team as their manager. I wasn't as expected to know everything a basket ball player would know but I had to learn new handshakes and locker room etiquette.<br />Leaving high school I got really into the band Tegan and Sara which I'd gotten to know from One Tree Hill. I liked what they stood for, love, peace and equality. Tegan and Sara are identical twins from Canada who play indie rock music. They also happen to both be lesbians which doesn't matter to me because music doesn't have a gender. They also educate their fans on various subject matters, for example Sara wrote a piece about misogyny in the music industry which is really important for any female in today's day and age. I've been reading a lot lately because of Tegan and Sara. Sara has a book list which she updates frequently and the types of books she reads are rather different from what I generally enjoy reading. Aside from their book list, Tegan and Sara fans are very literate so since I and several friends of mine run a Tegan and Sara fan page we do a lot of reading, we even ship books to each other because none of us live near each other. Though my mother teaches English she couldn't get me to read any of the classics but I'm currently reading Catcher in the Rye and The book Thief. Of late people have been telling me I'm quite well read and I really attribute that to Tegan and Sara.<br /> In conclusion I think I have been more influenced by books and Television than my own parents. No one really ever listens to their parents because what do they know they aren’t from our time. On the other hand when you have music and shows and friends who partake in influencing of your adolescent to adult lives you really grow close to it. Then maybe you actually go back and listen to your parents if all goes wrong. I think I’ve turned out alright, and so must my mum because she constantly brags and takes credit for everything I do.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-47376976934145056702010-01-22T13:52:00.000-08:002010-01-22T13:57:03.183-08:00People change.At times it just breaks my heart when I realize the world around me is changing and I'm stuck in the past. People change, the times have changed . No longer do we live in a time where the man of the house bust through the door with a bouquet of flowers and his suitcase in his arm expelling "honey I'm home". No longer is a wife expected to stay home and take care of her four family and dog house. Times have changed yes. As a woman who isn't interested I'm sitting at home baby sitting for a man, I'm not too disappointed that that in particular has changed . <br />Back in the day celebrities spent more time with their fans they weren't scared of them as I read an article/blog written by one of my favorite bands I was astonished that they of all people have finally conformed to the new society norm for celebrities . I guess us fans have brought it upon our selves . John Lennon was killed by an obsessed fan who wanted to be him. John Hinckley Jr an obsessed man who tried to assassinate the president of the united states to prove his love for Jodie foster. There are many more world class total creeps who ruin it. For the rest of use but that just shows the world is changing.<br />Gay people . <br />There have been gay people since the beginning of time . It wasn't even that long ago that being gay meant you were going to be committed to the mental hospital . People felt that it was a mental illness to love someone of your own gender . People have changed , some people anyway. And though I am not a fan of change I am glad that, that is one change people have actcepted , some people anyway. In Canada , Americas hat gay marrige is allowed . You'd think that a place like America a supposed melting pot of all kinds of people would be more actcepting but they are not. You'd think that finally after over coming bias behavior, discrimination, dogmatism, fanaticism, injustice, Jim Crowism, narrow-mindedness, partiality, provincialism, racialism, racism, sectarianism, sexism, unfairness and bigotry that the citizens of the united states wouldn't understand that all men are created equal regardless of thier sexual prefrences . It astonishes me to see that it's alright for a man or woman to hore around with the opposite sex and catch lots of twisted illnesses but it's wrong for two men or two women to just love each other . That's just so wrong on so many levels.<br /> People change alright bit do they learn? As a young adult honestly questioning my self the people around me, my government, the world. I on many circumstances shake my head in shame. People change but before they do they disapoint . Whether it's a change for good or a change for bad change in it self will hurt those around that you care about.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-50725872556297946802010-01-05T20:13:00.000-08:002010-01-05T20:18:56.216-08:00Invalid ...So the other day I was mulled by a cat .. Don't laugh it's not funny. I can't use my right arm the feeling has been lost . I'm really pissed about it because I'm right handed and I now have to rely on my left hand for stuff , like typing this blog for example. <br /> Here's how it happened , it was a lovely Saturday here in New York I had intentions of hanging out in my room watching television , drawing and enjoying good old amazing music on my iPod when all of a sudden a crazy, berserk orange cat ran madly into my room attacking a kitten that so happened to be laying on my bed . Instinctively I jumped up and started to chase the crazy cat. To my dismay it was completely mental , it did a 360' jump, wrapped itself around my arm and started biting and scratching . I don't quit remember what happened next but I do remember looking down on at my arm. My arm was completely covered in blood , just as I started going into shock my mom entered my room and saw what happened and got me to calm the fudge down . Luckily for it ( the cat) I was in to much shock to cut it's guts out and feed it to him with my bare hands.<br />Now that I'm some what sane and rational I realize it's really petty for me to want nothing more than to do something horrible the cat... As my mom mentioned when she saw the murderous look on my face "it's just a dumb beast." <br />Is it fair though ? I mean It could have killed me . But because it's IQ is lower than mine it gets away with it . That doesn't seem right to me . As I sit here typing with one arm in serious pain I feel nothing but resentment for the animal. I can't draw , I can't paint, I can't feed myself, I can't enjoy a good nights sleep and I can't kill the damn thing or have it put down. For some reason that doesn't compute well in my head and yet I fogive it...mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-57811082144119476182010-01-05T19:28:00.000-08:002010-01-05T19:31:09.152-08:00I'm out and about right now. After about several hours I finally got ready to go out . I don't know why but I like staying home despite the fact it's a horrid mess. I guess having a home makes one feel safe . At the rate mama and latante are going, who knows how long we'll have one so I figure I should enjoy it while it last. <br />I'm at Coral right now it's a restaurant in the neighborhood . Mama likes eating there , I on the other hand don't . I personally think the service sucks and the waiters don't know how to act. I might even go as far as to say Their like barbaric in the White House, not that this place is the White House . There are roaches and mice that wonder around like it's their play ground. I really don't like the environment of the place but my ma does so I have to keep patronizing it.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-4051002842891900342010-01-05T19:22:00.001-08:002010-01-05T19:22:40.198-08:00 Is loving someone you don't know actually loving them ?? Like a celeb 4 example you don't know them not really, you know what they want you to know about them so to sum this up your just in love with an illusion a creation of how someone wants to be portrayed . you're basically in love with a Sim.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-33210503743317728182010-01-05T19:19:00.000-08:002010-01-05T19:33:14.612-08:00Haven't watched actual television in some time, haven't taken a metro, wanting to go retro. It's 2-10 so now I'm wondering when I'll have me a flying car n a pill that taste like actual food , wondering when I'll take that "A" train to the "soul train" to the moon n back . Wondering when so by then I can say I was there it's 2-10 It should have all happened . No close encounter with any kind, no life on big red . Feeling cheated n robbed ...Y2k that's OK . Sorry just something I wanted to say....mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-31819346339357004532009-10-08T16:35:00.000-07:002009-10-08T16:43:24.540-07:00commentingOK so for a while now I've lost all faith in blogging , not only does no one read unpopular blogs but when they do they don't even comment . Come on its not that hard even if the blog your reading sucks you should comment on it and let the person know , that way they stop writ ting sucky blogs.<br />i was just reading this blog and this girl was trashing Kanye for what he said about Taylor Swift and it was a well written blog whoever no one had commented on it why is that? does it really take that much time to write something like that's cool dude or hey maybe you had better to take a creative writing class kid ? come on people just give a comment here there and every where.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-49095096765937366252009-10-08T16:34:00.000-07:002009-10-08T16:35:16.283-07:00P!nk in concertSo i went to see on Monday. it's her funhouse tour . The concert was at Madison square garden.<br /><br />The concert was amazing and i mean AMAZING from she scantly clad clothing to her amazing vocals and stunts i was just blown way . Seeing P!nk in person is really the only thing I've ever really wanted to do with my life... that and sleep with her but the second one isn't going to happen so I'm just happy with having met her.<br /><br />At first i thought i wasn't going to be able to go because the concert was sold out but due to seer luck i was able to get promotional tickets . I swear that was the best day of my entire life .<br /><br />now that I've done this my life is complete i need a new purpose now what shall it be? I'm going to go and ponder about that . any suggestions?mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-17588623088352687572009-08-15T20:51:00.000-07:002009-08-15T21:02:59.538-07:00bye 4 nowmy summer job is over it sucked big time the only good part about it was the money .... life is hard i know, off topic i know any way I'm leaving the country for a bit need to find a new surrounding some place i can be my self be at ease ... at least i don't have to be around people ... they have a way of screwing me over then again its human nature survival of the fittest . when i come back i promise to be changed and have a new out look on the way i see things... the way i think if you can't join the race you need to quit the Marathon I'm just getting started... peace out pplmythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-53008753014620626722009-06-24T14:55:00.000-07:002009-06-24T14:59:12.120-07:00complicatedMy mind said don't but my heart said yes and my friend pressed send. it's funny really how simple things can be so complicated ... or maybe its just me. i do have a way of turning simple things into nightmares i need to be more chill like you told me ................mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-53805212097532962922009-06-17T14:10:00.000-07:002009-06-17T14:17:19.246-07:00year books!!!to day we got our year books yay i look surprisingly awesome .... however it wasn't the good bye's and the can i sign that that made me sparkle with joy it was my editor and friend telling me she loved my piece in the school paper I've never felt so touched so meaningful it made me happy so I'm glad i got something out of the day. " whats the purpose of life if you don't get anything out of it?". another thing i found out today was of my small group of friends 4 out of 20 of us are graduating... heh i guess my brain juice didn't leak out on them heh. <br />any way latter earthlings :)mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-91799535476305267642009-06-15T15:20:00.000-07:002009-06-15T15:32:04.937-07:00the last day of schoolSo to day was the last day of school it could have been better had I not had a crappy weekend. How was my weekend crappy you ask well last week I got the- wait for it- swine flu heh no really I swore I was fine however no one listens to someone on the verge of passing out? Any was I’m still alive yay, and I’m getting a job bigger ( it's not really related but i still wanted to share ) yay. <br />any way it was really weird at school I didn't see any one I knew it’s like every one was kidnapped by gremlins and they left me behind :( .... any way I can't get over the fact I didn't see any one to day ....mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-74681082100863610742009-06-09T14:51:00.000-07:002009-06-15T15:33:22.406-07:00Prom!!!This in fact was the worst day ever. My class of the day starts at 10:37 am so I got on to the train at 9:3o something I really wanted to be the only senior in school. Well that plan was a flopper because I got picked up by the police for not being in school, now these assholes (except for 1 or 2) were the most unreasonable people I've every meet!!!! So basically my day was ruined.... <br /> The prom was ok couple of celebrities none all that great enough to get face time but it was ok...mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-71094960053304452152009-06-02T16:59:00.000-07:002009-06-02T17:33:07.305-07:00<meta equiv="Content-Type" content="text/html; charset=utf-8"><meta name="ProgId" content="Word.Document"><meta name="Generator" content="Microsoft Word 11"><meta name="Originator" content="Microsoft Word 11"><link rel="File-List" href="file:///C:%5CDOCUME%7E1%5CPARENT%7E1.71M%5CLOCALS%7E1%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml"><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="State"></o:smarttagtype><o:smarttagtype namespaceuri="urn:schemas-microsoft-com:office:smarttags" name="place"></o:smarttagtype><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:worddocument> <w:view>Normal</w:View> <w:zoom>0</w:Zoom> <w:punctuationkerning/> <w:validateagainstschemas/> <w:saveifxmlinvalid>false</w:SaveIfXMLInvalid> <w:ignoremixedcontent>false</w:IgnoreMixedContent> <w:alwaysshowplaceholdertext>false</w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText> <w:compatibility> <w:breakwrappedtables/> <w:snaptogridincell/> <w:wraptextwithpunct/> <w:useasianbreakrules/> <w:dontgrowautofit/> </w:Compatibility> <w:browserlevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4</w:BrowserLevel> </w:WordDocument> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml> <w:latentstyles deflockedstate="false" latentstylecount="156"> </w:LatentStyles> </xml><![endif]--><!--[if !mso]><object classid="clsid:38481807-CA0E-42D2-BF39-B33AF135CC4D" id="ieooui"></object> <style> st1\:*{behavior:url(#ieooui) } </style> <![endif]--><style> <!-- /* Font Definitions */ @font-face {font-family:Tahoma; panose-1:2 11 6 4 3 5 4 4 2 4; mso-font-charset:0; mso-generic-font-family:swiss; mso-font-pitch:variable; mso-font-signature:1627421319 -2147483648 8 0 66047 0;} /* Style Definitions */ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal {mso-style-parent:""; margin:0in; margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:12.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-font-family:"Times New Roman";} @page Section1 {size:8.5in 11.0in; margin:1.0in 1.25in 1.0in 1.25in; mso-header-margin:.5in; mso-footer-margin:.5in; mso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 {page:Section1;} --> </style><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style> /* Style Definitions */ table.MsoNormalTable {mso-style-name:"Table Normal"; mso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; mso-tstyle-colband-size:0; mso-style-noshow:yes; mso-style-parent:""; mso-padding-alt:0in 5.4pt 0in 5.4pt; mso-para-margin:0in; mso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; mso-pagination:widow-orphan; font-size:10.0pt; font-family:"Times New Roman"; mso-ansi-language:#0400; mso-fareast-language:#0400; mso-bidi-language:#0400;} </style> <![endif]--> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Hummmm</span> so i was down a little towards the end of May but I'm OK now I'm a trooper, my fave person moved to <st1:state st="on"><st1:place st="on">Michigan</st1:place></st1:state> and i really miss her… Have you ever had a person whom you can truly tell every thing about your self to? Some one you <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">aren</span>’t scared to open up to about the deep dark stuff inside, some one who really gets you and you get them and they are just so easy to understand you just love them and want to spent you every second with them but you don't because to much of a good thing is a bad thing. Well she was all that to me.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">It’s really odd actually the next day I also lost another friend … but any way I’m all better now and Friday is prom!!! I know I really <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">didn</span>’t want to go but like so many other things its important things in life Prom just falls on the top 50.<span style=""> </span>I am almost positive I won’t have fun but at the same time a bunch of celebrities are going to be there so might as well show up just to get a picture.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Graduation is also around the corner June 24<sup><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">th</span></sup> to be exact … and to top every thing off I turn 18 one month from today. </p> <p class="MsoNormal"><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Isn</span>’t it funny that when you’re a child you wish you were older so you can make your own rules, eat all the junk food possible and no veggies, stay up late, watch what ever end basically do what ever you want but then you reach that point in life, you wish you could go back escape all the responsibilities be young and in a sense feel free. I panic at that if I could hardly survive high school then how will I do in the big people’s world?</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Any way here my closing statement “<b><span style="font-family: Tahoma;" lang="EN">3 day's till prom 1 weeks till school ends 3 weeks till graduation 3 months till college ...4 yrs @ Fashion w/ a bunch of crazy people, a bunch of unforgettable memories and a hectic senior yr...priceless : )”</span></b></p> mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-26788796191714514992009-04-25T09:09:00.000-07:002009-04-25T09:27:29.882-07:00i suck as a personOK so lately I've been acting like a jerk to people i don't mean to be a jerk to, but no one ever asked me why .... i guess why doesn't matter i always say just because you have issues doesn't mean you should take it out on everyone ... but i guess i can be a hypocrite. i wouldn't even be my friend . i can change but whats the use if i'm being a saint and every one else sucks there's no point in being a saint . i hate being the bigger person i hate having to act older while the older people act like they are imbeciles ..... still that doesn't excuse the behavior i have been exhibiting ... i really don't get myself sometimes .... I'm really sorry about my behavior at times but its just so bloody complicated before i can fix others i have to fix my self .... someone recommend i find a descent well rounded figure to idolize not a celebrity like a person i know and can emulate .... in the mean time i have i rather long list of apologies to get to until then...mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-45585443100305740662009-03-26T13:06:00.000-07:002009-03-26T13:26:34.729-07:00The irratated push over.I wrote my first critic the other day the words just flowed out as I typed. I really had no idea where I was going with it but when I was done I was really happy with my self. I also learned something new about my self I would actually make a really good bitch. I really felt good about what I wrote because I didn't feel though I had to lie to protect any ones emotions. I’ve been really irritated lately because I feel taken advantage of. People want me to do for them what they wouldn't do for me. People take advantage of the fact that I’m a nice person and just keep irritating me. So for once I wrote what I wanted without fear or second thought. I look at my self and wonder is it to late to change.... should I just be the lame person people push over or the bitch that every one hates? <br />I just need a change of scenery a change away from Manhattan that is really all I need. Not that people in Manhattan are the only irritants in my life … we have the Bronx, Brooklyn, Queens and other places too.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-25489325950909854232009-03-17T14:46:00.000-07:002009-03-17T15:19:59.015-07:00listing to stuff.What does one write when they have nothing to say? Well I figured I’d just sit here and write what ever comes to mind. I’m listing to misery business by paramour. It’s an ok song you might have notices that I have some Taylor swift stuff up I currently like her, she’s no P!nk but her music is good. O.k. now I was just watching some Tegan and Sara videos. I thank the person who broadened my mind a little more by recommending them. I really like “The Con" by them. Well I should really get going loads of work to do. Say if any one has an artist or group that they would like to share please do I’m up for any thing.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-90053724332979991072009-03-16T17:32:00.001-07:002009-03-16T17:32:54.087-07:00tear drops<img style="visibility:hidden;width:0px;height:0px;" border=0 width=0 height=0 src="http://counters.gigya.com/wildfire/IMP/CXNID=2000002.0NXC/bHQ9MTIzNzI1MDE5MzAzOSZwdD*xMjM3MjUwMjE1MzQxJnA9MjIzNjEmZD*mbj1ibG9nZ2VyJmc9MSZ*PSZvPTNiNDU2ODZjZjllOTRkZTNiYzJiYjhhYjZjMDc2YjMw.gif" /><table width="100%" height="100%" cellpadding="0" cellspacing="0"><tr height="40"><td><a target="_blank" href="http://web.piczo.com/zone/musicvideos?p=m&cmpid=146&nsrc=ymusic_embed"><img border="0" src="http://cdnimg.piczo.com/images/asset/yahooMusicHeader.gif" style="width:100%;height:40px"></a></td></tr><tr><td><object classid="clsid:d27cdb6e-ae6d-11cf-96b8-444553540000" width="100%" height="100%"><param name="movie" value="http://d.yimg.com/cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/fop/embedflv/swf/fop.swf?id=v40129925&shareEnable=0&autoStart=1&songPurchasing=0"><param name="quality" value="high"><param name="wmode" value="transparent"><param name="bgcolor" value="#ffffff"><embed type="application/x-shockwave-flash" src="http://d.yimg.com/cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/up/fop/embedflv/swf/fop.swf?id=v40129925&eID=1301797&ympsc=4195339&shareEnable=0&autoStart=1&songPurchasing=0" width="100%" height="100%" quality="high" wmode="transparent"></embed></object></td></tr></table>mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-67453296336458684712009-02-03T17:52:00.000-08:002009-02-03T18:01:01.636-08:00Why don't you just tell me to "F" off then?Je pense que je suis une bonne personne ainsi dites-moi pourquoi jamais temps j'essaye de faire à sentir d'u un meilleur u non seulement m'éloigner mais u font ainsi d'une manière dont me fait la merveille pourquoi j'essaye même. Est-ce qu'u veulent-ils intentionnellement que j'aille ? Dites-moi… J'aime la manière u parvenue pour tourner mon jour parfait à une nuit moche que je remercie u de celui. Peux être je juste accroîtrai une paire et la sucerai vers le haut ..................... quel jamais homme - plus tardmythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-40810144730790145332009-01-23T16:39:00.000-08:002009-01-23T16:52:08.095-08:00How can I hate what I never knew?Forgotten<br />Left to stew<br />You used me <br />Then threw me<br />I thought I knew you;<br />Obviously I didn't<br />And not just for the obvious reasons.<br />I stood up for my self today<br />And your proud words I don't need to hear you say.<br />You left me...<br />You left me after promising you'd never leave,<br />Never go away.<br />But when the better option came along,<br />The obvious one in your hearth,<br />You left.<br />You lied to me; you made me believe you,<br />I even fell in love with you.<br />I don't hate you <br />I can't hate you,<br />How can I hate what I never knew?mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-6020434181049872902009-01-22T17:08:00.000-08:002009-01-22T17:15:24.783-08:00still alive :)ok I’m alive and alls not so bad any more I guess all that had to be done was for time to pass with a cool head on my shoulders. Yep I’m one calm and collected person. How was my day? It started out stressful I was in school but I only attended 3 classes and did my work. I re meet the freshman I met on the first day of school I found out she's born June 22 making her a cancer like me :) I experimented with some psychology to see what type of person she was and it turns out she's allot like this girl I know or thought I knew before.... not important any way I think she's cool ... for a freshie lol. Any way I have a paper due I had better go write that.mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-53311290254021413642009-01-21T18:02:00.000-08:002009-01-21T18:11:03.594-08:00I’m hoping to have a hearth attack before tomorrowGrrrr I hate my life I’m hoping to have a hearth attack before tomorrow and die so that all the stress on me can fly back into the ass cracks of the people who put the stress on me in the first place. Since there is no way to even get any of this crap done I quit. I’m not going to pop pills and webcam my death, I will however just keep this nerve racking death chest pain thing going and hope that leads to a hearth attack. ................................................. If I succeed I hope you've all enjoyed my blog, in a later life people:)mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-12724389518367784282008-12-23T17:18:00.000-08:002008-12-23T17:19:20.533-08:00happy holidaz peoplehappy holidaz people<br /> see you in 09<br /> peaz out (peace)mythslegendsandtruthhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15521589841199646795noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7155940558000451514.post-912231492615436882008-11-24T17:21:00.000-08:002008-11-24T17:33:39.688-08:00what more can i say?Here is what really happened last may. I must get this off my chest so it can stop killing me. I never lied to lem. Chriz said I did but I never did. I wouldn't I ... I respected her to much to do such a thing. She was my friend she made me laugh she took care of me. I knew better than to betray that. I may have been a pain in the butt occasionally but that’s how I show I care. If I could I would beat the living crap out of chriz because she is a lying a**hole. Pheww ... but if I could go back in time and fix every thing I don’t even know where I would begin. Changing the past isn't an option so I give up on that, but maybe some day one day I’ll let lem know what really happened. 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