complicated

My mind said don't but my heart said yes and my friend pressed send. it's funny really how simple things can be so complicated ... or maybe its just me. i do have a way of turning simple things into nightmares i need to be more chill like you told me ................

year books!!!

to day we got our year books yay i look surprisingly awesome .... however it wasn't the good bye's and the can i sign that that made me sparkle with joy it was my editor and friend telling me she loved my piece in the school paper I've never felt so touched so meaningful it made me happy so I'm glad i got something out of the day. " whats the purpose of life if you don't get anything out of it?". another thing i found out today was of my small group of friends 4 out of 20 of us are graduating... heh i guess my brain juice didn't leak out on them heh.
any way latter earthlings :)

the last day of school

So to day was the last day of school it could have been better had I not had a crappy weekend. How was my weekend crappy you ask well last week I got the- wait for it- swine flu heh no really I swore I was fine however no one listens to someone on the verge of passing out? Any was I’m still alive yay, and I’m getting a job bigger ( it's not really related but i still wanted to share ) yay.
any way it was really weird at school I didn't see any one I knew it’s like every one was kidnapped by gremlins and they left me behind :( .... any way I can't get over the fact I didn't see any one to day ....

Prom!!!

This in fact was the worst day ever. My class of the day starts at 10:37 am so I got on to the train at 9:3o something I really wanted to be the only senior in school. Well that plan was a flopper because I got picked up by the police for not being in school, now these assholes (except for 1 or 2) were the most unreasonable people I've every meet!!!! So basically my day was ruined....
The prom was ok couple of celebrities none all that great enough to get face time but it was ok...

Hummmm so i was down a little towards the end of May but I'm OK now I'm a trooper, my fave person moved to Michigan and i really miss her… Have you ever had a person whom you can truly tell every thing about your self to? Some one you aren’t scared to open up to about the deep dark stuff inside, some one who really gets you and you get them and they are just so easy to understand you just love them and want to spent you every second with them but you don't because to much of a good thing is a bad thing. Well she was all that to me.

It’s really odd actually the next day I also lost another friend … but any way I’m all better now and Friday is prom!!! I know I really didn’t want to go but like so many other things its important things in life Prom just falls on the top 50. I am almost positive I won’t have fun but at the same time a bunch of celebrities are going to be there so might as well show up just to get a picture.

Graduation is also around the corner June 24^th to be exact … and to top every thing off I turn 18 one month from today.

Isn’t it funny that when you’re a child you wish you were older so you can make your own rules, eat all the junk food possible and no veggies, stay up late, watch what ever end basically do what ever you want but then you reach that point in life, you wish you could go back escape all the responsibilities be young and in a sense feel free. I panic at that if I could hardly survive high school then how will I do in the big people’s world?

Any way here my closing statement “3 day's till prom 1 weeks till school ends 3 weeks till graduation 3 months till college ...4 yrs @ Fashion w/ a bunch of crazy people, a bunch of unforgettable memories and a hectic senior yr...priceless : )”