Friday, January 22, 2010

People change.

At times it just breaks my heart when I realize the world around me is changing and I'm stuck in the past. People change, the times have changed . No longer do we live in a time where the man of the house bust through the door with a bouquet of flowers and his suitcase in his arm expelling "honey I'm home". No longer is a wife expected to stay home and take care of her four family and dog house. Times have changed yes. As a woman who isn't interested I'm sitting at home baby sitting for a man, I'm not too disappointed that that in particular has changed .
Back in the day celebrities spent more time with their fans they weren't scared of them as I read an article/blog written by one of my favorite bands I was astonished that they of all people have finally conformed to the new society norm for celebrities . I guess us fans have brought it upon our selves . John Lennon was killed by an obsessed fan who wanted to be him. John Hinckley Jr an obsessed man who tried to assassinate the president of the united states to prove his love for Jodie foster. There are many more world class total creeps who ruin it. For the rest of use but that just shows the world is changing.
Gay people .
There have been gay people since the beginning of time . It wasn't even that long ago that being gay meant you were going to be committed to the mental hospital . People felt that it was a mental illness to love someone of your own gender . People have changed , some people anyway. And though I am not a fan of change I am glad that, that is one change people have actcepted , some people anyway. In Canada , Americas hat gay marrige is allowed . You'd think that a place like America a supposed melting pot of all kinds of people would be more actcepting but they are not. You'd think that finally after over coming bias behavior, discrimination, dogmatism, fanaticism, injustice, Jim Crowism, narrow-mindedness, partiality, provincialism, racialism, racism, sectarianism, sexism, unfairness and bigotry that the citizens of the united states wouldn't understand that all men are created equal regardless of thier sexual prefrences . It astonishes me to see that it's alright for a man or woman to hore around with the opposite sex and catch lots of twisted illnesses but it's wrong for two men or two women to just love each other . That's just so wrong on so many levels.
People change alright bit do they learn? As a young adult honestly questioning my self the people around me, my government, the world. I on many circumstances shake my head in shame. People change but before they do they disapoint . Whether it's a change for good or a change for bad change in it self will hurt those around that you care about.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Invalid ...

So the other day I was mulled by a cat .. Don't laugh it's not funny. I can't use my right arm the feeling has been lost . I'm really pissed about it because I'm right handed and I now have to rely on my left hand for stuff , like typing this blog for example.
Here's how it happened , it was a lovely Saturday here in New York I had intentions of hanging out in my room watching television , drawing and enjoying good old amazing music on my iPod when all of a sudden a crazy, berserk orange cat ran madly into my room attacking a kitten that so happened to be laying on my bed . Instinctively I jumped up and started to chase the crazy cat. To my dismay it was completely mental , it did a 360' jump, wrapped itself around my arm and started biting and scratching . I don't quit remember what happened next but I do remember looking down on at my arm. My arm was completely covered in blood , just as I started going into shock my mom entered my room and saw what happened and got me to calm the fudge down . Luckily for it ( the cat) I was in to much shock to cut it's guts out and feed it to him with my bare hands.
Now that I'm some what sane and rational I realize it's really petty for me to want nothing more than to do something horrible the cat... As my mom mentioned when she saw the murderous look on my face "it's just a dumb beast."
Is it fair though ? I mean It could have killed me . But because it's IQ is lower than mine it gets away with it . That doesn't seem right to me . As I sit here typing with one arm in serious pain I feel nothing but resentment for the animal. I can't draw , I can't paint, I can't feed myself, I can't enjoy a good nights sleep and I can't kill the damn thing or have it put down. For some reason that doesn't compute well in my head and yet I fogive it...
I'm out and about right now. After about several hours I finally got ready to go out . I don't know why but I like staying home despite the fact it's a horrid mess. I guess having a home makes one feel safe . At the rate mama and latante are going, who knows how long we'll have one so I figure I should enjoy it while it last.
I'm at Coral right now it's a restaurant in the neighborhood . Mama likes eating there , I on the other hand don't . I personally think the service sucks and the waiters don't know how to act. I might even go as far as to say Their like barbaric in the White House, not that this place is the White House . There are roaches and mice that wonder around like it's their play ground. I really don't like the environment of the place but my ma does so I have to keep patronizing it.
 Is loving someone you don't know actually loving them ?? Like a celeb 4 example you don't know them not really, you know what they want you to know about them so to sum this up your just in love with an illusion a creation of how someone wants to be portrayed . you're  basically in love with a Sim.
Haven't watched actual television in some time, haven't taken a metro, wanting to go retro. It's 2-10 so now I'm wondering when I'll have me a flying car n a pill that taste like actual food , wondering when I'll take that "A" train to the "soul train" to the moon n back . Wondering when so by then I can say I was there it's 2-10 It should have all happened . No close encounter with any kind, no life on big red . Feeling cheated n robbed ...Y2k that's OK . Sorry just something I wanted to say....