Prom!!!

This in fact was the worst day ever. My class of the day starts at 10:37 am so I got on to the train at 9:3o something I really wanted to be the only senior in school. Well that plan was a flopper because I got picked up by the police for not being in school, now these assholes (except for 1 or 2) were the most unreasonable people I've every meet!!!! So basically my day was ruined....
The prom was ok couple of celebrities none all that great enough to get face time but it was ok...

Hummmm so i was down a little towards the end of May but I'm OK now I'm a trooper, my fave person moved to Michigan and i really miss her… Have you ever had a person whom you can truly tell every thing about your self to? Some one you aren’t scared to open up to about the deep dark stuff inside, some one who really gets you and you get them and they are just so easy to understand you just love them and want to spent you every second with them but you don't because to much of a good thing is a bad thing. Well she was all that to me.

It’s really odd actually the next day I also lost another friend … but any way I’m all better now and Friday is prom!!! I know I really didn’t want to go but like so many other things its important things in life Prom just falls on the top 50. I am almost positive I won’t have fun but at the same time a bunch of celebrities are going to be there so might as well show up just to get a picture.

Graduation is also around the corner June 24^th to be exact … and to top every thing off I turn 18 one month from today.

Isn’t it funny that when you’re a child you wish you were older so you can make your own rules, eat all the junk food possible and no veggies, stay up late, watch what ever end basically do what ever you want but then you reach that point in life, you wish you could go back escape all the responsibilities be young and in a sense feel free. I panic at that if I could hardly survive high school then how will I do in the big people’s world?

Any way here my closing statement “3 day's till prom 1 weeks till school ends 3 weeks till graduation 3 months till college ...4 yrs @ Fashion w/ a bunch of crazy people, a bunch of unforgettable memories and a hectic senior yr...priceless : )”

i suck as a person

OK so lately I've been acting like a jerk to people i don't mean to be a jerk to, but no one ever asked me why .... i guess why doesn't matter i always say just because you have issues doesn't mean you should take it out on everyone ... but i guess i can be a hypocrite. i wouldn't even be my friend . i can change but whats the use if i'm being a saint and every one else sucks there's no point in being a saint . i hate being the bigger person i hate having to act older while the older people act like they are imbeciles ..... still that doesn't excuse the behavior i have been exhibiting ... i really don't get myself sometimes .... I'm really sorry about my behavior at times but its just so bloody complicated before i can fix others i have to fix my self .... someone recommend i find a descent well rounded figure to idolize not a celebrity like a person i know and can emulate .... in the mean time i have i rather long list of apologies to get to until then...

The irratated push over.

I wrote my first critic the other day the words just flowed out as I typed. I really had no idea where I was going with it but when I was done I was really happy with my self. I also learned something new about my self I would actually make a really good bitch. I really felt good about what I wrote because I didn't feel though I had to lie to protect any ones emotions. I’ve been really irritated lately because I feel taken advantage of. People want me to do for them what they wouldn't do for me. People take advantage of the fact that I’m a nice person and just keep irritating me. So for once I wrote what I wanted without fear or second thought. I look at my self and wonder is it to late to change.... should I just be the lame person people push over or the bitch that every one hates?
I just need a change of scenery a change away from Manhattan that is really all I need. Not that people in Manhattan are the only irritants in my life … we have the Bronx, Brooklyn, Queens and other places too.

listing to stuff.

What does one write when they have nothing to say? Well I figured I’d just sit here and write what ever comes to mind. I’m listing to misery business by paramour. It’s an ok song you might have notices that I have some Taylor swift stuff up I currently like her, she’s no P!nk but her music is good. O.k. now I was just watching some Tegan and Sara videos. I thank the person who broadened my mind a little more by recommending them. I really like “The Con" by them. Well I should really get going loads of work to do. Say if any one has an artist or group that they would like to share please do I’m up for any thing.

tear drops

Why don't you just tell me to "F" off then?

Je pense que je suis une bonne personne ainsi dites-moi pourquoi jamais temps j'essaye de faire à sentir d'u un meilleur u non seulement m'éloigner mais u font ainsi d'une manière dont me fait la merveille pourquoi j'essaye même. Est-ce qu'u veulent-ils intentionnellement que j'aille ? Dites-moi… J'aime la manière u parvenue pour tourner mon jour parfait à une nuit moche que je remercie u de celui. Peux être je juste accroîtrai une paire et la sucerai vers le haut ..................... quel jamais homme - plus tard